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Im Emellia Tang.
Currently Schooling at ite Clementi as a traineeship student in AKLTG
Im 17 born on 1st of March 92
Im a happy go lucky girl who loves outdoor sports..
I love challenges as it makes who I am now..
Im currently in a complicated relationship(:

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Baby Aizat fee sister Yanoneh Baby Stella Baby Fikri Ex Apiz

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Wednesday, August 19, 2009

i just read your blog.. i just have something, a lil to say.. you need to move on.. dats all.. im also trying my best to just reload my old life again but this time with a higher dignity.. im thankful to you to have change me and my whole life.. whatever happens between us, we will still have a relationship.. either frens or whatsoever.. thanks for everything you have given me all this while.. especially the roses.. it means alot to me dude.. you move on your life like i do.. kae dude?? we are frens afterall ryte?? herm.. smile always like how you always do as im still gonna be here sincere and always..

now in akltg.. we are doing anything we like as if as our father company.. hahaha.. cool rite?? you know y?? its all because.. they is noone other than us interns.. hahaha.. lets all of us conquer this world in future too.. haha.. im just being crazy la.. all nuts!

♥ cookie monster

4:03 PM

everything ended!
love,
cookie

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11:47 AM

Monday, August 17, 2009

ello fellow bloggies..
i just dont know what to start with.. hais..
im back in office with slight fever..
bad cough which strangle my throat..
and difficulties in breathing at times since last two days..
i already read aizat blog and i just dont know what to say..
hmph! y is he so bushy?? wat i mean.. so open!
wth is wrong with u??hais..
now i shud think whether i shud give azim a chance or not maybe..
herm.. since both of u are equal the possesive level..
so why not??
hais.. im so confuse with my own feelings..

For noneh : guess what?? i just read ur blog too.. herm.. u have mistaken me.. he likes you and i dont know whether the opposite counts after what just happen.. hais.. you said that i dont understand you?? herm.. cumon.. you just get me wrong.. but now.. im just disappointed with u la.. herm.. u texted muhd and u even talked to him in a lovely way ( not like how u treated rafiq -aku kau ) herm.. maybe now, u just got to think again.. if really we are like going after this guy name muhammad, im going to tell the whole world this.. and its a promise.. i wont contact with him animore since he hava a better companion.. okeh you.. sorry but i read you texest with him.. people, all the best la kae?? i got nothing to say.. my own bestie twirl her own words?? hais.. maybe i know wats u gonna give the reason.. and the reason is.. i was just trying to care about him.. hello.. y not u think again.. am i your super best fren?? ""closest"" ?? think again la kae..?
i've been sick way before he is sick but.. U didnt even enquire about me like how u did to muhammad.. wat the hell?? herm.. this is what bestfrens are for i guess.. nehmind.. all the best kae?? i got nothing to do with muhammad.. and i tak kan gado or tarik balik my words.. herm.. hope you are happy with your world.. and pssst .. jage2.. hanah like him too.. dats all i can say..
mel got nothing to do with him.. his just a fren.. but not not.. his just an acquiantance for me.. not more.. and truly.. im disappointed in you.. but nehmind.. this is what bestfren are for i guess..

For the 2 guys Azim and Aizat: I dont know how to react.. seriously.. maybe i guess.. what's best are for me to leave both of you.. easier i guess.. cux ryte now.. both of you are equal.. one, a upcoming horny bastard.. and another one, a negative thinker.. hais.. aizat, maybe i guess, after you read this, i want you to do something.. stop contacting me.. we can contact at msn and tagged/fb.. For azim, do whatever you want and just go find a cheap girl that is easy to get kae??

for all fellow bloggies..
i guess this is an obstacle in my life..
to apart with aizat makes my life wonder around..
to leave azim makes me feel wrong..
i know dat im going to be lonely w/out aizat in the day..
and azim in the night time..
but i guess..
this decision makes a fair deal for both of them..
and one more thing u got to learn after reading..
dont trust anione..
cux the anione can just do something w/out ur knowledge..
we might know them throughout..
but we just wont know their true feelings inside out..

all the best people..
i guess.. this is the what i deserve..
although this life is gonna b short..
this is what i should just live for..

mine only
~emellia~
p/s: i miss baby marsha alot!

♥ cookie monster

4:20 PM

Friday, August 14, 2009

life dont always side u..

i just dont know y and what im saying..

guys are a great partner for gurls..

i really cant deny dat..

but i guess..

they just cant understand lady dat much..

sex is not everything dat a girl wants..

u guys just dont understand..

life is pathetic!

status in website is not important??

den y u changed all that??

hais..

i can forgive u..

but its hard for me to forget it..

it really hurts me alot..

while typing this..

tears are flowing..

while having a conversation with matrep baby..

hais..

and listening to aizat blog song..

matrep baby..

if dat nite was the last time u cuddle me..

i will treasure that memories with u..

aizat baby..

u are the guy that every lady shud respect..

i love you alot..

if that m&m cookies make us happy together..

and if thats the last two cookies you're giving me..

den im gg to keep it w/out eating it at all..

azim baby..

i know u love me alot..

and u are sincere to be with me..

but love cant be force..

and to achieve a girl love..

u got to strive hard and stop giving up..

muhammad baby..

i had won ur heart once..

and i left my feelings tangling cux of my fren..

i wanna give in my feelings for her..

and now dat a new girl just entered this love again..

be wise kae dear..

im gonna b here for u as a fren..

u can still share with me anything u like to share..

just like before..

i miss the time when our eyes were to be deep contact..

and if that thurs is the last time we gonna have a lunch together..

i want u to know dat im gonna miss dat laugh and joy with u..

to ninhairi baby..

im sorry if i did anything wrong towards u..

thanks for taking care of me since 190509 - 280609

really appreciate it..

all the lies u have said is forgiven and forget..

but if u are mad with me now, im sorry..

to sabri baby..

i love you..

i just realize that ive done a huge mistakes in life..

whatever it is..

you are a great guy..

i do hope to be with u again..

but i guess..

no..

we are better be cousin..

noneh baby..

u are just a great sis dat i have..

who understand me throughly..

thanks for all the care and concern u gave me..

although we quarrel everyday..

i wan u to know one thing..

i love you sis..

i just wan u to be happy..

ur smile is enuf to make me happy..

muhammad is a great guy..

do give him a chance..

and..

if the hug during the lifeskills event is the last hug dat i can treasure..

i will keep the momentum deep in my heart..

im gonna miss u so much!

ak peepz..

all the best..

i love all of u..

sorry for being noisy..

loud..

naggy..

and bossy!

haha..

im sry to have always burden u all..

if the nite is the last nite we gonna spent together..

i wan u guys to know dat i really enjoyed that whole nite..

for my whole family..

im sorry for everything..

for all the secrets i have kept from u guys..

and..

for all the lies i have lied to all of u..

thanks for taking care of me..

especially to abg nizam..

i know u are the firces brother..

haha..

but frankly..

w/out u, i might be an idiotic lil kid..

i love you bro..

mama..

those roses i bought are for u..

u are the bestest mother in the world..

thanks for all the sacrifices you have made for me..

papa..

i might not be with u..

or i might not even recognize u..

but one thing for sure..

i miss u papa..

i dont hate u..

cux w/out u, i might not b born in this world..

and to everyone..

i love you all alot..

thanks for giving me the chance to know and b with u..

im gonna miss all the memories i had with all of u..

~ratna emellia tang~

~010392- ~

♥ cookie monster

8:08 PM

hello fellow bloggies..

today is my third day of mc..

herm..

how shud i express my day today..

herm..

im bored..

im missing sumone..

im sad..

im hurt about everything..

im giving up..

im stress..

im tired of this life..

im having a breathing difficulties..

im confuse..

hais..

i miss all my akltg frens..

i miss muhammad..

i miss noneh..

i miss jai..

and everyone there..

hais..

muahmmad and me falls ill at the same time..

i know that they will think negatively about this..

but what can we do..

we cant avoid/blame fate..

herm..

im so worried about him..

hais..

i hope his getting well by today..

thought of visiting him but..

hais..

3 girls into 1 guy?

ouh no man..

i had won his heart before..

but now i guess, i can only take him as a fren/buddies..

everything that is happening around me is fated..

i understand all that..

i giv in due to a fren..

and i hope that his happy with her..

dats all..

for the girl that like him but he just give a short comment..

i just want to tell u this..

i know him well enuf..

look urself in the mirror before giving out ur ego..

dats all..

for me now..

i guess, i give up in love..

let god decide..

i love you..

but day by day..

u just dont understand my feelings..

and for another u..

love cant b force..

love comes by itself..

~emellia~

im so sry dat im fallin..

♥ cookie monster

7:46 PM

Thursday, August 13, 2009

im really sorry for everything..

i think, i just cant be with u animore..

i dont want u to suffer in future..

i do love you from the fullest of my heart..

you have been there for me 24/7 since 1 july 2009..

everything change after i got u..

i think more maturedly and stuff..

i am really thankful to have u once in my life..

but now, after some consideration..

i guess, i got to go..

thanks for everything dear..

you have sacrificed alot for me..

i know ur endurance if fully for me but..

i guess, i should consider your future too..

herm..

i know dat everything shudnt happen now..

but before its too late..

its better for me to let u go now..

baby, find someone who can take care of u..

who is healthy and fit..

someone whom u need not endure her fucking attitude..

and someone who is independant enuf and faithful to u..

this one whole year of 2009..

i have been falling ill more den 10 times..

i just dont know y..

one thing i can feel is that..

i cant live long in this wonderful world..

for that, i dont want to take the risk for hurting the person i love..

i know my supervisor and stuff are angry and dissapointed with me..

but what can i do..

this stupid disease had come in me..

herm..

maybe i might not tell anione about my sickness..

not even u baby who i really love..

i have been lying to u all this while i guess..

herm..

dahla..

baby, no cry kae??

be strong like what i am doing..

stay strong and act normal..

haha..

and everyone around me..

one thing..

one favour..

pls, dont ask anything from me..

react normal..

im fine..

im strong..

and.. there is always a make up to cover up my paleness..

haha

so no weri on whether other people will ask u about me or not..

cux only i know what happen..

not even my family..

not even my bestfrens..

not even my bf..

keep this in mind..

im a normal emellia you guys know..

and baby..

you take care..

u will always b in my heart..

always..

~emelliaizat~ for the very last time..

♥ cookie monster

6:37 PM

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

the cough syrup

the pills for my flames

the anti-biotic pills

let the picx make you understand how i am suffering..

all this is due to lungs infection..

people smoke but we get the infections..

dats the reason y people have to b more considerate..

they have to stop smoking..

or we START smoking..

im just so stress up now..

how am i able to swallow the big pills??

god damnmit!

im dying soon

♥ cookie monster

9:59 PM